Holding on.

I've suffered with depression for a super long time. I'm tired, annoyed, angry. I just want to be happy! Some people say hapiness is a choice. For a depressed person, well atleast for me it's not. I try so hard(maybe not hard enough) to be happy, but I can't. I just can't. It feels like my brain won't let me. The moment I feel sort of happy I feel like there's something wrong. Something missing. I was thinking, maybe what's stopping me from being happy is all the anger I have. All the anger I feel towards my dad, my mom, life, the people that bullied me, and myself. But how do I let go? I try and try and try and try to let go and not be angry, but it's hard. How can I not feel anger towards the people that ruined my life. How can i not be mad at all the shit my dad has said to me and done. How can i not be mad at my mom for never standing up for herself and me. Why do I keep believing in all the things people say about me and not believe what I know about myself? Why can't I let go of all the anger I have!? Why is it easier holding on to all this anger that keeps building up than letting go?

Where is my life going?

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I see all the people i went to high school having kids, getting married, some transferring colleges. I see people on social media i follow traveling, moving out, doing all these great things with their life. I feel like my life is just a waste. I've been so depressed that i feel like that has hold me back. I don't even know what i want to study. I've always loved styling hair. Ever since i was little I've said i wanted to become a cosmetologist. My dad has always been against it, he says thats not good a job. Ive also always loved the idea of teachig. I do love kids. And i would love to help kids with special needs. I love both, but I can't choose what i want to do. Can i do both?

Oh Life...

Hello! I know i've been gone for so long. I'm sorry. But honestly, i've had no motivation/inspiration at all. I've been in a funk! Kinda depressed I guess. I'm feeling a lot better now though! Thank god! So life. It has been crazy from choosing a school, to debating what I actually want to study, to trying to find a job. I decided to go to a community college after all. I'm still not sure if i want to do cosmetology ot something else. I've applied in so many places. It's so stressful! Ok so i'm a bag hoarder right?!so i've been looking for a new bag. But I don't want to spend it on a bag that I don't really like. I've been looking at high end and at less pricey ones. I'm just so indecisive!! I want something cute but yet functional, something that goes with everything but yet stands out. So, so far the one I've seen that i really like is from Markkit.com. Well it's actually 2. I like the Mini Speedy and the Regular Speedy. Now im debating on which one i want! Well once i decide i'll do a review and a what's in my bag post. Oh, btw you guys should check out the app! I'm obsessed with it! Its fun playing "love it or leave it" and "knowsy". Plus you get really good deals! And the app is FREE!!

Xoxo, Michelle<3

The struggle of choosing a Blog name...

Hello. So let me tell you the struggle of choosing a Blog name now a days. First, I didn't want a blog name with my name. But then I saw that a lot of the girls i follow have their name on their blog/ youtube channel. I was going to put my name on the blog name, but (yes here comes the big scary 'BUT' again. lol) all the names i wanted with my name in it were taken. The most annoying thing was that all those blogs were taken by people that never blogged, blogged once or twice, and this was back then (2002-2007). I mean obvi they have forgotten about the blog, they havent blogged since then. Well after that, and annoying my sisters, bestfriend and cousin (sorry guys!), my sister came up with the name 'Life is better with Michelle'. Yayy! Finally a name that wasn't taken on Blogspot.com. I really wanted to start my Blog asap, but I didn't really like the name. I mean I liked it and all, but it wasn't me. I felt as if it made me seem to conceited. Totally not me. Trust me. That's why i just did 3 blogposts on that one. I just didn't feel motivated with that name. Then after thinking for so long again, and telling myself that I needed to choose a name. I came up with, the oh so great 'Soul of Glitter!' Now, this name is me. I love glitter. Anything and everything with glitter. lol So yes, i'll say my soul is made of glitter.
       
                                                     xoxo, Michelle<3

Get to know me tag!

1)How old are you?
19

2)What nationality are you?
Mexican

3)What grade are you in?
I just graduated this past June, but ill soon be in cosmetology school.

4)Do you have a job?
Not yet :(

5)What is your eye color?
Brown.

6)What is your natural hair color?
Honestly, I've been coloring it for so long i don't even remember lol, mostly like black/dark dark brown

7)What type of skin do you have?
SUPER DUPER sensitive and dry skin

8)Do you have freckles?
Like 3 or 4 

9)Do you / did you have braces?
Nope

10)Whats your favorite perfume to wear?
None they all give me allergies :(

11)How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
Less than 10 mins.

12)Whats your favorite color?
Pink, purple, between a baby blue & mint?

13)Heels or flats?
Flats

14)Gold or silver?
SILVER

15)Do you have a boyfriend?
No.

16)Do you have siblings?
Yes, 4 sisters.

17)Do you have pets?
Yes, my sisters. Haha but i do want to adopt a dog.

18)Have you ever been out of the country?
Yes, Mexico.

19)What is something that makes you nervous?
Everything and everyone. 
                     
                                                 xoxo, Michelle<3

WELCOME!

Hello World! Welcome to my blog! My name is Michelle, i'm 19 and living in The Bay Area. I love fashion, makeup, hair (soon to be cosmetologist here!) and spending time with my family. I also LOVE glitter. haha. Well i want my blog to be a little of everything; from my story of being bullied, depressed, and dealing with anxiety, to plus size fashion, outer and inner beauty, and life. 

xoxo, Michelle<3

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