A letter to those who bullied me

Thanks for ruining my life! Thanks for making fun of me for so many years. Thanks for making me feel like i was never good enough. Thanks for making me think life would be better if i just killed myself, and thanks to those who told me to just kill myself! Some of you might think "oh! We were just kids" or "it wasn't that bad". I know other people have had it worse than me, but those same stupid people bullied me since elementary up to high school! No one has ever apologized, or said they regret it. Then theres others that might say they never bullied me but then you never helped! You never once tried to stop them, you never asked me if i was okay. All you ever did was laugh with them. Not only do i suffer from depression but i also have social anxiety. Besides being depressed(not wanting to see anyone, talk to anyone, just wanting to sleep all day) I really cant go out. I can't even go out with my family. My family always tell me "come on lets go! DON'T WORRY THERE WONT BE A LOT OF PEOPLE!" how fucking sad! I always have to ask if theres going to be a lot of people. You don't understand how much it sucks to be AFRAID of being around people. I can't go anywhere with my family nor myself without looking around. I'm so scared of people making fun of me, that if theres just ONE person behind/next to me or i have to talk to someone i have a panic attack. I can't breathe, i get dizzy, i start shaking, i just want to cry and leave that place. I hate it!!! And all because "they're just kids!" "They'll stop doing it once they grow up!". So once again, to those who bullied me and to those who didn't do shit and just watched Thanks For RUINING MY LIFE!